yeah, i had a major bitch moment earlier tonight before i went to work. i found out that last night steph shaun john chris patty jack and bransen all hung out. but no one invited me, and that really hurt my feelings, i mean why shouldnt it. and i took it out somewhat on steph, but she didnt even care that i wasnt there last night so im not sorry for doin that. she tryed acting like she knew what it felt, but shes a fucking retard and she doesnt know what it feels like so that just made it worse.

2nd day is playing. i might as john to take me. he told steph no. but she thinks he will take me.? i dunno i dont get it. hmmm

well i just got home from work, nothing cool. no one came in. so i got online, and talked to people while i was supposed to be working. i talked to dave and ashlee. dave had left me a message and it said " can i leave a message? i love you :)"  he said it cuz my away message was like this " im tired of everyones fucking bullshit and their lies, i cant even count on my closest friends anymore, so fuck off. im at work dont bother to leave a message" but dave made me happy when he wrote that to me. even though i wasnt mad anymore when i got it, but yeah.

shaun is just being a fuckface. he cant have more than one female in his life at a time. the same thing happened with korina, but not quite this bad. oh and the worst thing is he lied to me about last night. he said he only hung out with patty, and steph and jack for a bit. he didnt bother to mention, john chris or bransen. god i could just castrate shaun right now.

well im gonna go. im hungry.

this just in... everyone is at jessie's, she's having a get together tonight. just another example of no one asking me to do anything. im fucking tired of this.

i should not be suprised. i should have seen it sooner.