I AM: alone
I THINK: too much
I KNOW: what love is
I WANT: to get a second chance
I HAVE: friends
I WISH: john would stop ignoring feelings
I HATE: ignorance
I MISS: my twin
I FEAR: failure, lonliness
I HEAR: dashboard confessional
I SEARCH: for light, but find only darkness
I WONDER: why the one person you need the most, is never there.
I REGRET: breaking his heart
I LOVE: john
I ACHE: for him to feel the same
I CARE: about people who don't return the feelings
I ALWAYS: have music and poetry
I AM NOT: going to cry again
I DANCE: hardly ever
I SING: this song for you
I CRY: myself to sleep at night
I DO NOT ALWAYS: think before i act
I FIGHT: my feelings
I WRITE: poetry, and one day i will be a famous poet
I WIN: appreciation
I LOSE: my self-confidence, courage, tears when they escape my eyes
I CONFUSE: myself
I LISTEN: to music everyday
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: writing poetry or listening to music in my room by myself
I NEED: a REAL kiss, a REAL hug, from the person who means the most to me
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: ramen noodles
I SHOULD: be reading for school, and cleaning
[DESCRIBE YOUR]
[Purse]: red with a scull and crossbones on it. from hot topic. then i have a black dickies one
[Jewelry worn daily]: horseshoe barbell earrings, watch, rosary bracelet, bracelet lauren made me, the one my mom got me thats silver, jack's red and black wristband. the bracelet john gave me freshman year. my grandmothers necklace, chris' heart necklace, and the two necklaces from steph. wow thats a lot
[Pillow cover]: its white with green and blue stripes
[Shoes]: red and white etnies
[Favorite top]: taking back sunday shirt, black. or the used one from the concert, its black too.
[Favorite pants]: old looking jeans, or black capris
[Cologne/Perfume]: clinique happy, night blossom (From hot topic)
[CD in stereo right now]: dashboard is in one, in another is taking back sunday, and in the other is thrice.
[Piercings]: ears
[Hair]: dark brown, middle length?? past the shoulders, with red highlights
[What you are wearing now]: a shirt i bought in new york and a pair of jeans with tube socks
[In my mouth]: my teeth
[In my head]: thoughts of john
[Wishing]: john wasnt blind ( so to speak )
[After this]: cleaning, and getting ready for the game
[Talking to]: no one
[Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: ryanoalooza, thursday concert, taking back sunday/saves the day concert
[The last thing you ate?]: ramen noodles
[Some of your favorite movies]: tommy boy, mallrats, lord of the rings ( all of them ), harry potter ( all of them ) down to you, now and then, all the star wars movies... umm others
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: losing my parents too early
[Do you like incense]: yep
[Do you believe in love]: of course
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: yes, but not like because they way they look, you can just tell by looking into their eyes.
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: yes
[If you could have any animal for a pet]: a llama! haha megan!!!!
[What are 3 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?]: paris ( if i could speak french better ), boston, london
[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]: pasta! i eat it everyday, fries with cheese
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: john, well guys all together actually
[In the last 24 hours, have you]
01. Cried: yes
02. Bought something: dairy queen
03. Gotten sick: nope
04. Sang: to myself
05. Eaten: yeah.. ramen noodles, dairy queen, rice
06. Been kissed: i wish
07. Felt stupid: always
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: every minute of every day
09. Met someone new: hmmm nope
10. Moved on: nope
11. Talked to an ex: yeah, chris, shaun, john i talked to all of them
12. Missed an ex:: always
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes
14. Had a serious talk: hmm can't say that i have
15. Missed someone: every minute of every day
16. Hugged someone: yeah
17. Fought with your parents: nope
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: every night
[Social Life]
01. Best guy friend: shaun, chris, john, dave, jack
02. Best girl friend: steph, litz, saba
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: none existant as of right now
04. If no, current dating partner: none. wishing though
05. Pager: nope
06. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: depends on who im with
07. What type automobile do you wish you drove: hell i dunno
08. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: both at the same time is always nice
09. Where is the best hangout: coffee shop, i miss it so very much.
10. Do you have a job: yep
11. Do you attend church: nope
12. Do you like being around people: depends which people
[Who]
01. Have you known the longest: elise
02. Do you argue the most with: my parents, or chris lol
03. Do you always get along with: litz, saba
04. Is the trustworthiest: litz, saba, maybe shaun
05. Makes you laugh the most: litz, saba, emili, kt, STEPH
06. Has been there through all the hard times: steph and litz and saba
07. Has the coolest parents: ummm i dunno
08. Have the coolest siblings: ashley. i love her sis
09. Is the most blunt: stephanie
10. Is the smartest: me, i hate to sound conceited but i think its the truth
[Personal]
01. Who is your role model: sarah michelle gellar
02. What are some of your pet peeves: backstabbers
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: once
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: yes indeed, do it all the time
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: yeah. they are tall, with dark hair, and dark eyes.
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): nothing big
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: yes
08. Rather be dumper or dumped: both are horrible
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship
10. Want someone you don't have right now: of course. i have wanted him more and more ever since he broke my heart
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: john was my best friend so duh
12. Do you want to get married: yeah
13. Do you want kids: ill adopt, the whole labor thing freaks me out lol
14. Do you believe in psychics: no
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: i dont know. but lemme say i wouldnt mind marrying john, he cooks i mean come on!
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: my eyes
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: how i can express myself so deeply thru poetry
18. Are you happy with you: no
19. Are you happy with your life: sorta
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: my feelings towards people