make it all be in the past,
instead of sitting here face to face.
why is it so hard, to forget your face,
all i want is to have an empty space in my heart,
where you used to be. i want to wake up,
and not think about you.
but its so damn hard.
first loves, are always the worst.
but why me?
why now?
why you?
yeah random i know
a convo between dave and i follows...
x2ndDaVeX: why do you confuse yourself?
Auto response from rubbeR DucKie159: :'( why do they make me so confused?
rubbeR DucKie159: u think i confuse myself?
rubbeR DucKie159: other people are the ones who confuse me
x2ndDaVeX: why so?
rubbeR DucKie159: i dunno. i just dont understand anyone anymore
rubbeR DucKie159: not even my best friends
x2ndDaVeX: ummmm alrite?
rubbeR DucKie159: what
x2ndDaVeX: how do you "not understand people"
x2ndDaVeX: your gettin all emo lately
rubbeR DucKie159: its not like i want to be that way
rubbeR DucKie159: its just...grrrr... i dunno
x2ndDaVeX: u seem depressed all the time
rubbeR DucKie159: because i am. but i dont want to be
rubbeR DucKie159: i'm usually ok when i'm out doing stuff with my friends. but then i go home and i'm like blah
x2ndDaVeX: no no no
x2ndDaVeX: friday night
rubbeR DucKie159: friday night. i was just down because john and amanda. and shaun has been ditching me, because of patty. and he wouldnt even talk to me much anymore. thats why i was like that friday
x2ndDaVeX: whats wrong w/ john and amanda
rubbeR DucKie159: nothing is wrong with them. its just john and amanda. i hate it seeing him with girls.
x2ndDaVeX: omg
x2ndDaVeX: kaitlin
rubbeR DucKie159: dont start
rubbeR DucKie159: dont i dont wanna hear it
x2ndDaVeX: and you wonder why i don't ever want to get involved
x2ndDaVeX: dude i will not lie to you, i like you
x2ndDaVeX: and more than a little
x2ndDaVeX: but i could never EVER deal with the john thing
rubbeR DucKie159: i know
rubbeR DucKie159: but i do like you too. but see i mess everything up. no wait. john messes everything up, well indirectly anyways
x2ndDaVeX: why do you still like him?
rubbeR DucKie159: i have absolutly no fucking idea
rubbeR DucKie159: hmmmm
x2ndDaVeX: ...
rubbeR DucKie159: ...
isnt that just great? nope