grrrrrrrr.... i hate people. i hate boys. i hate anything male. even hamsters. i dunno. i made it up.
thank god amanda wasnt at the tomato festival last night. i would have been so like blahhh.... ya know? yeah
shaun is with patty every fucking day. man hes whipped. and it makes me so fucking mad. even when he was with korina, it wasnt this bad. jesus.
and of course i am talking to shaun online, and he goes are you going to the dance? What kind of idiot is he? Everyone has a date, besides me, why the FUCK would i go? hes asked me this like 4 times in the last 4 days. god. and it just makes me sad. i told katie ( c, not johns sis) what john did, and he and her really dont get along so she was like what the fuck? she was mad too. lol.
grrr damn high school and drama. its so fucking useless. i wish i had never liked john. and i wish he had never asked me to go to homecoming with him. i hope he finds out amanda cheated on him. and i wont be there for him. im tired of him. and his shit.
and last night he and i were fighting like i said in my last entry. and i wish he wouldnt do that because its flirting. and he knows how much i want him. its exactly like it was last summer when he liked me and i didnt know it, and when i liked him and he didnt know it. we always would fight like that. and im like grr why does he do it? does he like me at all and thats why he does it. because he doesnt really do it to anyone else. last night erin and i were like BLAH... we cant figure out what we find so great in john and dave. maybe we will never know. but we are doomed forever.
and i am tired of complaining. so im gonna go.
there you are asleep against the window pane just like always.
and last night he and i were fighting like i said in my last entry. and i wish he wouldnt do that because its flirting. and he knows how much i want him. its exactly like it was last summer when he liked me and i didnt know it, and when i liked him and he didnt know it. we always would fight like that. and im like grr why does he do it? does he like me at all and thats why he does it. because he doesnt really do it to anyone else. last night erin and i were like BLAH... we cant figure out what we find so great in john and dave. maybe we will never know. but we are doomed forever.
and i am tired of complaining. so im gonna go.
there you are asleep against the window pane just like always.